Barefoot Bellringing

I have never been a huge fan of grocery shopping. I make a list, and get what’s only on the list, but I find the grocery store daunting. Even moreso now that I am aware of my addiction to food.

I’ve been told that if I stick to the outer aisles of the grocery store, I’ll do better, as there’s very little processed food on the outer aisles. While this may be true, there’s also plenty of end of aisle temptations with weekly specials etc.

My pantry is close to bare and my fridge is full of half-eaten leftovers that needs to be cleaned out. Today is the day. I’m having company for lunch tomorrow and don’t have the ingredients in for what I need. So, instead of overwhelming myself with a list for a week, I’m going to menu plan for the next 3 days, get us through the weekend and perhaps go again on Monday.

I’m finding that the liver cleanse is going well. But I have a pounding headache, dry mouth and ringing in my ears…all signs of detoxing. I’m told it will go away. And I hope it does…soon!

I’m going to get a garbage bag and clean out the fridge and freezer of expired food, half-eaten food, and take out/leftovers that are not edible. Then I think I’ll clean the fridge itself and start fresh.

At the same time that I’m learning to deal with food addiction, I’ve switched from my paper planner to a virtual calendar in my new smart phone. A GIANT step for me, who is daunted by technology and anxious about new things. But I will learn and I will succeed. Because I have to.

I have a clean bright, spring-like tablecloth on the dining room table. I have fresh flowers in a vase in the middle of the table. There is a placemat at each seat and a cloth napkin to match. I’m going to savour each and every food experience. Especially food I make myself. I have the ingredients in to make fruit smoothies in the morning and I’m excited about that venture.

Overall I feel quite disjointed, unable to properly focus and finish one task before beginning another. I believe that is the artificial sweetener leaving my system. And my sleep has taken a turn for the worse. But it will get better…it has to.

This afternoon I’m going to buy my first pair of proper running shoes as I now have a walking partner for two days a week. That’s exciting! And once the pup is better trained for walking (he starts obedience training on Friday night) I’ll bring both dogs with me.

One step at a time. One food choice at a time. One day at a time. It will get better.